If I knew you’re a part of those twitter freaks who called themselves “twitterjaya” i wouldnt have followed you. Ughh. So lame
You know what suck? Feeling as if you’re fat, all your confidence just flew out of the window just the thought of that feeling. Knowing, whatever you do, there will be one person who will call you fat eventhough you’re not. And no one will actually say anything once you’re thin. They won’t say wow! you’re thin and shits.
You know what’s worst ? Being normal ! You’re so close to being thin but you’re not there yet, you’re wearing size 2, girls compliment on your thinness and yet the boys, all they can say, you’re normal or even worst; you’re bigger than normal but not chubby. Which put you in a position which makes you feel as if you’re never going to be good enough.
I am on a strict diet, I am no longer happy, I feel forced to exercise, I am usually happy to do so because it makes me feel great, but now I feel forced and sick of it. My fuckin’ boyfriend can’t even say that I am thin, nope, he can never say it. He will only say you’re normal. Which actually crushes me everytime he said it, makes me feel as if I am not beautiful.
Fuck emotion, fuck people, fuck perception.
I miss being happy. I hate this miserable life
Never expect the unexpected, let it be unexpected and make the best of everything that is thrown at you. If life throw you a Tomato, make a Pomato. It's about using your imagination and create the best thing you could think of :)
